What Side Are You On?

September 29, 2020 – Presidential Debate

The above is a link to a news report on last night’s Presidential Debate. This is one quote that should chill the blood of everyone who reads it:

“Proud Boys, stand back and stand by,” Trump said. “But I’ll tell you what, I’ll tell you what, somebody’s got to do something about antifa and the left because this is not a right-wing problem.”

The Proud Boys are a white supremacist group who are armed and dangerous. And the President of the United States last night told them this.

What side are you on now?

If I had seen this live it would have taken every ounce of energy in me not to scream and rage at this. This is what our country has come down to. This is what we have now: not just a raging buffoon but a raging racist in power.

And as I write this I hear voices in my head who will try to spin this off in some way.

Throughout human history and especially now more than ever, there is an ideology among some people that in order not to be oppressed, they have to be the oppressor. These adherents of this ideology are not victims, but abusers themselves. They have willingly embraced a life without kindness, compassion, and empathy for anyone, not even themselves. If they show any of those things it’s only for a short time and only for their own personal gains.

I know what I’m writing may seem brutal. And I can hear voices in my head telling me to tone it down, that I’m blowing things out of proportion.

If you say that to me I will call you a gaslighter. That is saying I can’t think for myself and that I didn’t hear what I and millions of other people heard. It’s saying my thoughts and feelings don’t matter at all. This is called abuse, plain and simple. It’s called bullying because this is how bullies wear down their victims to get them to bend to their will or break all together.

Last night, Joe Biden at the Presidential debate didn’t bend or break. He knew this was coming and he came prepared. He didn’t have to come prepared with facts and figures, but with strength and courage to stand up to a racist, heartless bully. And if you support the current occupant of the White House… ask yourself why. Ask yourself why you are so willing to try and minimize his behavior, his words, his call to action to white supremacists.

Don’t come to me with your answers. Go over your answers in your own mind, go over them with your conscience. Go over them with the God you believe in.

And as for me, I know exactly why I have never supported the current occupant of the White House. I have my answers and I’ve gone over them with my conscience, and with my God.

I will not become an oppressor. I will not turn to abuse in order to survive. I will not destroy my own emotions, my compassion, my empathy, my kindness for others in order to survive. Twice in my life, I felt myself starting to shut down those emotions and it scared me like it was supposed to. Even now as I write this I feel those shudders of fear inside me due to the intensity of those emotions. I feel myself constantly on the verge of tears, of just wanting to curl up in a ball and cry my eyes out. I’m grateful for those feelings of fear and sadness even as badly they hurt me because it means I’m human. It means I will not be the oppressor. I will not be an abuser.

I am on the side of Love.

I am on the side of Hope.

I will not be silent in the face of evil, of oppression, of abuse.

For not only will I be thinking hard now, I will talk hard.

So after reading all my words here, if you have to ask what side you are on… I’ll say a prayer for you in the hope that you choose the right side.

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